Before I started Penelope Loves Lists, I set down two rules for myself:
1) I would write in my own authentic voice and not in some voice or style I think people might like better.
2) I would consistently post just two times per week on set days.
The first rule was so that I would learn to trust my own instincts, which is hard for me, and the second rule was that, given that I have 3 children, a husband and a pretty intense day job, I knew that posting more than that wouldn’t work for me.
The Big “But”: Buuuuuuuuut, once I started, and traffic and readership started rolling along at an amazing clip, I started getting lots and lots of requests from people to post more. And, just in the last week, I’ve seen two people link to this site saying it’s their favorite new blog (Great!) but then follow that up immediately with a complaint that I don’t post enough. (Ouch!)
My inner 13 year old started to whisper in my ear that maybe my two times per week schedule wasn’t enough. (That inner 13 year old is the same nasty chick who also whispers that I’m not as attractive as I should be and I’m chubby and yes, maybe I’m a fraud overall. She’s a real piece of work, that one.)
I caved into her and put a poll on the site asking if you guys want me to post more. And a whopping 75% of respondents said yes!
These people have a point. So much blog advice from the Big Bloggers says that, if you’re really serious, you must post at least 4-5 times a week. And I want to do a good job on Penelope Loves Lists. I love it immensely and, further, I want to always work hard and do my best at anything I do.
The Real Reason: And, here’s the kicker: I desperately want everyone to like me. All the time. And if I post more, maybe you will like me more. And that’s a Siren’s Call for me. I’ve done countless dumb things in my life in an effort to get people to like me. I know that it never works. Not 100%. And yet, it’s hard me for to just tell myself no.
The reality is, there’s simply no way I can post 4-5 times per week. I’d go crazy, put out crappy content, burn out and quit completely. And I don’t want to do that.
So, here’s where I need to put my Big Girl Panties on and honor my promises to myself, even if it terrifies me to do it. And it does.
The Decision: Here’s what I’ve decided: I’m going to continue to post consistently twice a week, on Sundays and Wednesdays. These are posts that are prepared carefully and in advance, according to an editorial calendar. And, if I have a particular itch to do a quick additional post on the fly at some other point in the week, most likely Fridays, great.
But I’m only going to promise myself twice a week. I’ll try to honor that promise I made to myself in an effort to learn to value myself and to hold my priorities dear, even in the face of my lifelong, sucking insecurity.
Let’s see if I can do this.